Damn

I started this blog a few days ago, I've been sick and just wasn't in the mood to sit at the computer. Besides HIV I'm also an Asthmatic and a diabetic damn! It is what it is, I deal with it I thank God everyday when I open my eyes because I know I'm blessed. Dec. 31 1999 I was rushed to the emergency room my family was told I wouldn't live to see the new year come in. My mom told them well is she's going to die I'm taking her home. So She did she is my hero! She is the shit we didn't get along when I was a teenager but y'all know how that goes. But with her and my counsler I got well enough to travel I said I want to go home (Cali). I've been back every since I touched down in 2000. I didn't have any hair and only weighed a little over 100 pounds!@ Straight crack head my sister used to say I look like a burnt match (BITCH) but I took it in stride and it gave more will power to get stronger. I Like to think of myself as a G it's going to take more the a illness to bring me down trust me I'm going to be here for a long time.

Just a little about my sick ASS!

Damn Hiv+, Why me? I don't get down like that but I got caught up. I know females that are out there bad, you know the type that will lay down with any and everybody. They are all disease free, but what the hell do I do? I know it can't be cured, but, I do know there are drugs I can take to prolong my life. So the next step is how do I find the right combination? I had to go through ten different medications before I could find the right cocktail.

I started off with AZT, and all the others that began to slow down the progression of the disease. I became immune, along with the constant vomiting and diarrhea. That shit was not cool. So I went back to my Doc (it is very IMPORTANT to talk with your doctor if your meds make you feel fucked up, because he/she doesn't know).

I was unable to take all the pills because I couldn't swallow them. I didn't know what to do, which caused my viral load to rise and my T-cells to drop. SHIT here we go again...What next? My saviour! Liquid medication and a g-tube! What's a g-tube you ask? Well my sister jokes with me and calls it my penis...Haha bitch real funny!

Actually it's a feeding tube inserted in the stomach, most sick people get it to eat when they can't swallow food, but I couldn't swallow my meds because some of it smelled like pure shit...literally.

HIV AIDS is a BITCH...If it was a female I would bet hear down to dust!
I have HIV but it doesn't have me...BITCHES!